what is women actually wanted..please take a note..

yoo.. lame tak update.. so , have been so much thing has happen in my every single day.. hhmm.. tetibe , been thinking.. kenape tak sumer laki yg betul2 boleh hargai perempuan.. my statement it doesn't mean that all man don't know to appreciate girl.. well , lucky lar girl yg dapat lelaki yg betul2 appreciate dia.. survive together.. and it doesn't mean that i've been frust or hurting.. just , i've been know so many type of guy.. and they all are totally different character , the way they thinking , the way they do.. sangat larr berbeza , yee larr.. tak semua orang same macam mane yg kite anggap.. but , the real here is.. seberape ramai yg syaq jumpe , tak ade sorang pun yg syaq rase betul2 boleh stay , hargai , serious dengan syaq..masing2 ade motif yg bodo , kadang sebab dicabar dengan kawan2 tuk ngurat , ade yg just saje je.. tak senang kite nak dapat kan soulmate.. and i hate to hear people keep talking bout me , orang tak ade bf kan.. macam2 kutukan kena.. ada yg cakap aku ni LESBO , SIMPAN SCANDAL VIP , HANYE LAYAN VIP JE LARR.. wwooow!! don't you guys think that it too much , plus it my life , i've plan and i decided it.. is there anything wrong with your life..tak kan.. so , just shut up and get your life better firts.. then , you can came to me and talk bout my life is..
soo.. back to the tittle.. 'WHAT IS WOMEN ACTUALLY WANTED FOR..' firts , perempuan nak kan life dorang yg better dari segi usaha sendiri , same je macam orang lain nak.. happines in family , friend , work , what they done for.. and also , a guy that can be a man in her life.. aite ??
then , bile semua tu dah complete , keje , family , kawan2.. perempuan akan pikir pulak , sape yg akan dengan aku.. perempuan tak nak lebih dari lelaki yg tuk jadi lelaki yg bertanggungjwab kat hidup perempuan ni..for me , i never ask a materials , a BMW car , LANCER ke ape.. tak..cukup kau ade keje , dah boleh support diri kau tak harap kan duit family.. dah cukup dah.. tapi ape yg perempuan nak , jujur dengan dia , ikhlas terime dia dengan family dia , percaye ape yang dia buat , sayang dia seadanya , faham dia.. and ade dengan dia , bukan time senang je.. tapi all the time , to me.. aku ta mintak tuk kau call , text aku 24jam , jumpe aku hari2.. you can not do that , you can not do this.. but , kau ade tuk aku , kau paham ape yg aku rase.. kau hargai aku.. and tolong , aku tak suke orang yg membohong.. so , kalau boleh walaupun kau rase ade benda yg nak buat tu memang terang2 salah or sakit kan hati aku.. kau just cakap je , aku terime dari aku tahu kau membohong aku , and at last aku tahu dari orang lain.. and that time feel so damn sh*t.. then , jgn tanye kenape dapat f*ckup dari aku.. tapi , seberape ramai yg aku jumpe , tak ade lagi sorang pun yg betul2 aku nampak usaha , jujur , ape tujuan dia nak kenal dgn aku.. aku lebih suke tengah dalam gurau2 aku gune psychologies... haa , then.. booomm !! you just blow it out , dari main psycho sikit kau dah kantoi motif kau kenal dgn aku.. and secare hormat nya kau ditolak mentah2 oleh aku...ahahahaa.. easy aite , senang je sebenar nya kite nak tengok lelaki ni.. bile dah jumpe macam2 jenis laki.. ta makan mase yg lame bile aku baru kenal... sekejap je dah kantoi.. tu yang orang kadang cop aku ni playgirl.. ahahaha.. what a jerk!! bukan PLAYGIRL..

  tapi aku cari yg terbaik antare semua.. macam korang gak kan.. tak kan korang nak main pakai amik je , asal NAME ADE SPECIAL BOYFRIEND.. ahahahahaa.. just don't do silly decision just to make ur self feel good that take time fer a minute.. you will regret it.. 
hhhmmmm... kadanggg aku pretend yg aku okayyyy sangat dalam ape2 problem.. tapi ta bagus..

well.. korang , tak senang sebenarnya bile kite nak pura2 yang kite ni okay.. susahh.. bile kite makin pura2

yg kite ni okay.. makin sakit larr kite rase.. kita simpan ape yg kita rase..here the tips.. 

lelaki yang macam ni yang perempuan nak kan.. tapi bukan senang tuk dapat lelaki yg macam ni.. tak semua laki yg berperanan macam ni bile dengan special girl dia..  bile macam ni.. releations pun aman , happy.. kan... hmmm , im still waiting fer the rite guy to be a man in my life..or , ade orang kate lelaki yg macam ni pun boleh jadi special tuk kite..

hhhmmmmm... betulll ke ?? well , maybe ade yang macam ni.. well , lucky sape yg dapat macam ni.. and i think i really deserve it one day.. biar lambat , asal berbaloi..

macam perempuan ni , aku rase dia sangat larrr bertuah.. dia dapat lelaki yg sangat hargai dia , sanggup ape pun tuk dia.. tuk bukti kan yang dia betul2 serious sayang ang cinta kan si perempuan ni.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eJWlavnM6b0&feature=related 

tengok arr video tu.. tu pun kalau boleh bukak.. ahaha.

tengok , perempuan ta nak lebih dari lelaki.. perempuan cume nak DIHARGAI.. !! and , guy.. please.. just don't make ur girl tears down sampai dorang rase dah cukup sakit hati , nanges dengan ape yg kau buat... kalau kau ta nak pun perempuan tu , etlist kau terus terang dengan care yg betul.. bukan nya dengan care yg nampak kau tak hargai dia , sakit kan hati dia.. we girl , deserve a better one.. same goes to man.. they also deserve the better one... 

and girl , if you feel you are alone.. just think positive.. ' alone doesn't habe to be a lonely word..' rite , so just stay strong and stay with what you doing , what your decision is.. your life , just take time to get it better.. sebab kite ta nak ade REGRET DALAM KEPUTUSAN YG KITE BUAT... sooo !! stay chill.. rilex your mind , self.. make it happy.. don't be happiness in tears.. love syaqiela xoxo

nobody perfect!!~~ but we always try the best fer our own life..??~~!!!##$%%^*&&()*

When I'm nervous I have this thing yeah I talk too much 
Sometimes I just can't shut the hell up 
It's like I need to tell someone anyone who'll listen 
And that's where I seem to fuck up, yeah 
I forget about the consequences, for a minute there I lose my senses 
And in the heat of the moment my mouth's starts going the words start flowing 

But I never meant to hurt you, I know it's time that i learnt to 
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved 
This is a lesson learnt , I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it 
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah 
And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken 
So don't tell me you can't forgive me 
Cause nobody's perfect, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, nobodys perfect 


If i could turn back the hands of time 
I swear I never would have crossed that line 
I should of kept it between us but Jessie went and told the whole world how she's feeling and oh 
So I sit and I realise with these tears falling from my eyes 
I gotta change if I wanna keep you forever 
Promise that I'm gonna try 


[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/nobodys-perfect-lyrics-jessie-j.html ]

But I never meant to hurt you, i know it's time that i learn to 
Treat the people I love like I wanna be loved 
This is a lesson learnt and I hate that I let you down and I feel so bad about it 
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah 
And I hate that I made you think that the trust we had is broken 
So don't tell me you can't forgive me 
Cause nobody's perfect, no, no, no, no, no, no, no,nobody's perfect 


Im Not a saint no not at all, but what I did it wasn't cool 
But I swear that I'll never do that again to you 
I'm not a saint, no not at all, but what I did it wasn't cool 
but i swear that ill never do that again to you. 
I hate that I let you down, and I feel so bad about it 
I guess karma comes back around cause now I'm the one that's hurting yeah 
And I hate that I made you think that that the trust we had is broken 
So don't tell me you can't forgive me 
Cause nobody's perfect, no, 
nobody's perfect


lyrics nobody perfect by jessie j..


the world has show that nobody perfect.. tapi kite selalu akan cube buat yang terbaikk tuk life kite and org yang kite sayang atau pun family... same jugak macam aku.. tapi, kadang tak semua benda yang kite nak kan akan menjadi.. and kita akan dapat.. kadang rase give up dengan ape yang kite lalui.. peritt lagi beb bile kite sorang.. tak semua orang keliling kite boleh paham or boleh cerite setiap butir.. am i rite ????   i wake up every morning, im wish and willing my day have a better day and better life.. start my day without any tears, stress, dizzy with things around.. i've been praying ask allah to give me, myfamily, people around me to have better life in good health, with sweet blessing accompany we all.. 
satu yang aku dah berpuas hati selame ni aku tunggu, akhirnya memihak kat aku.. aminn... 
tapi benda lain ???? 

happiness ?? love ?? trust ?? honest ???

tak semua orang dapat dalam mase yang dorang tentu kan.. same jugak dengan aku..

aku tak niat tuk sakit kan hati sesape or ape2.. aku pun nak rase disayangi.. 

kenape ek??  bile aku happy, aku senyum yang datang nya dari diri aku..yang aku betul rase happy.. kejap jekk benda tu semua.. lepas tu ade jek lahanat2 yang spoil kan semua benda tu.. mule larr aku serabot, tak tentu pasal.. sampai satu mase aku rase tak boleh nak handle masalah yang ade.. aku betul2 perlu kan someone tuk support aku, atau pun dia..!!!~~~

aku kadang give up.. tapi aku still handle benda ni semua..

aku suke bile dengan kawan-kawan.. aku ketawe jekk.. they make me happy and feel free..

have you guys ever wonder what life means is really is ???

they have a word stuck in my mind, that sometimes make me feel realize what to do with life, to get fer what we want to..

''Don't lose who you are, in the blur of the stars ,Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing, It's okay not to be okay... Sometimes it's hard, to follow your heart. Tears don't mean you're losing,everybody's bruising, Just be true to who you are ''

soo.. all i have to do is be true with who am i..there soo many things happen in this 2,3 weeks.. and sometimes situations make me feel fucking down and lost.. but, i've to work it work.. to get the best ending of life story.. i wish, that im in good health dan jugak yakin dengan setiap benda yang aku buat.. semua orang perlukan sokongan, macam tu jugak aku.. 

gambar ni mengambar ape yang aku rase ape yang ade dalam diri aku..

as what we all realize that is nobody perfect and try to be who we are... 

life there be precious..

at last !!!! heheheehe

akhirnya qiela dapat gak jeans ni.. heheheheeee... ntah nape minat sgt dgn jeans ni.. terbaik larr.. happy yang tak terkire rase nya.. its from 

haa.. jeans tu kat PULL AND BEAR... aminn.. hihiii.. puas ati rase nya bile dah dapat.. ngggeeee....

jadi tuk bape minggu ni dia larrr buah ati eden..

muuaaahhx..love you larr  qiela..

       xoxo

fever.. flu..ulser.. gigi jugak.. alone... boreeedddd weeyhh..

okay... great ... qiela demam, macam biase demam yang kejap okay, kejap tak..

then, gigi sakit.. perrgghhh.. dah larrr dalam mulut ni ade ULSER...!!!

CRAAPPPP~~~ dah tu badan penat giler... 

and im alone.. bosaannn nya larr kan.. dah larr pale ni  stress !! pressure larrrr sangat !!! huhuuuu.. btw, hari ni qiela buat satu lukisan dengan kawan yang same otak nya STRESS... and its look great, and feel a lil a bit release.. ni haa yang kitaorang buat... 

so ni larr gambar yang qiela lukis yang juge dibantu oleh kawan yang same jugak keadaan pale nya yang tengah sangat larrr serabot and stress.. !!! to much thinking make we feel so suck and  

migrin.. eerrghhhh.. tak suke..

and i was miss you fer a long time its like fer 4years.. hhrrmmm..

and its make me feel so damn ALONE... hheerrrgghh...

tapi cantik kan drawing saye.. nmpak kat situ macam mane serabot nya saye ni.. saye suke law lukis time-time mood cam ni.. nnt kuar idea yang ntah ape-ape and nmpak cantik dan PELIK ...

huhuuuu... 

my heroes ~~~ always need them so well...

from ne-yo...
 Heroes ~~


Never doubt never doubt
Here for you here for me
Worry not I'll be there
Strenght when you feel weak
In the dark when you can't see
Guiding light I will be
All I need all I need
Is for you to do the same for me


Even heroes need heroes sometimes
And even the strong need someone to tell them it's allright
Even heroes need heroes sometimes
Will you be my hero tonight


Just look up up so high
Just above you is where I fly
But if I fall from the sky
On you can I rely
I'll protect you from the world
Whenever I can
But will you do the same for me
Now and again


Come to my my rescue
Do for me as I do for you
Be my guide when I am blind
'Cause no one can be strong all the time




Even heroes need heroes sometimes [will you be my hero]
And even the strong need someone to tell them its allright [will you be my hero]
Even heroes need heroes sometimes
Will you be my hero tonight [will you be my hero][3x]
Will you be my hero tonight




there are my heroes...
 my eldest sister..

kakak yang ni kelakar.. tapi sometimes dia serious... huhuuu.. biasse larr kakak.. tapi tetap best..


yang bawah ni pulak.. kakak no dua.. nggee... yang rapat dengan eden... my hero... love you always..

haa.. see.. kitaorang nak di ikot kan suke buat benda same2.. tengok muke kami.. conteng - conteng.. hihihiiii.. rame-rame... tu fav kitaorang..

i love you sister.. and you always be the best fer me.. i always wish the best fer you, thanks fer always be the best sister fer me... ouuhhh.. touching lak.. sendriri type, sendiri nak nanges.. 

huurrmm.. coz i love u guys.. im always wish, that we a family always be together.. someday i will make sure that i have make a great vacation fer you guys.. that time all we can see is, happiness, smile on ur face.. =)

yang ni pulak, its my mum.. =)

haa.. yang pakai tudung tu, my mummy..

what ever it is.. she is my best hero ever..

i love you.. im sorry if i've been a bad daughter to you...

you such a lovely mum... 

haaa.. yang kat ujung belah kanan tu.. laki tu, abang eden.. gambar dia sorang tak de lak.. law ade pun, mesti senget-senget.. sebab tu kalau amik gambar, biar lar amik sekali ramai.. sebab kalau amik gambar dia mesti gambar dia senget-senget, pastu mesti kuar lidah.. hensem kot dia rase... hehehe.. dia besttt !!! walaupun kadang suke cari gaduh dengan qiela, tetap best,.. tak gaduh nanti qiela gak yang mintak nak gaduh.. huhuhuuu

yang pakai baju belang lak tu yaya.. anak sedare.. hehehee..senget gak dia tu.. muuaahhx.. love you sayang..

also not forget, my dearie bestie nisa... tak dapat nak masuk kan b[gmabr dia lak.. tenet lehh slow giler gaban.. huhuuu..  she always with me, walaupun dia jauh.. and kadang selau kena marah, sebab dia tersangat larr gelabah.. sampai qiela sendiri gelabah cam dia.. but she the best fren i ever had...

ehh.. upload gambar sendiri boleh pulak...

huhuuu. tak lupe, my daddy... even dia tak tahu yang qiela selalu sayang dia... qiela tetap akan selalu sayang dia... 

its all bout my hero.. and FEDDE...

l.O.v.E

eeemmmmuuuUUaaAAHHxxXX !!!!!!!!!

my trully kiss...